Well, this am, at 8am....i through away both my ashtrays, and 5 packs of cigs i had left....I am excited and scared at the same time. I am going through a very rough time right now, as far as my life goes, and at the same time, i figured what the hell, this is as good a time as any to do this, b/c life is always going to have stress and if i can do it during this hard time, then i can do it anytime....as i sit here now at work,and am typing this, i can feel my chest tightening up making me think it's time for a smoke. I would like to not feel this way, i want to not want one sooooooooooo bad. I hate them, they stink, and they are ruining my life. I don't need them, and i am trying my best to do this today and everyday now for the rest of my life. I want to be stronger than the urge...stronger than the nicotine calling my name....help, i do need help from you all. Thanks Kate