now, i have been a smoker for roughly 13 years. i smoked through my first pregnancy (though never thought i would, and hate myself for it, i still did it - thankfully my 3 year old has not had a single health problem to date, and i cross my fingers that doesn't bite me in the ass, but that's a whole other worry....) anyway, i am pregnant with my second, and last child.
Amazingly i gave up smoking - COLD TURKEY - when i found out i was pregnant with this baby (i literally cut the pack up with scissors during a craving so i would have no choice but to deal with it).
Since i am 8 months pregnant...i am 8 months smoke free, and it's so weird that i haven't smoked that it's not as exciting as i imagined or as proud of myself as i would have expected, i guess cause the baby is my motivating factor - i didn't do it for me --- anyway since the cravings still come and go at times my biggest fear is when i am no longer pregnant - will i be strong enough to stay away from the crap. i have walked past people who smoke, and i have had no choice but to breathe it, but i have to say it nearly chokes me, and smells so much worse then it ever did....but the addiction is so overpowering i am so afraid that when the reason i used to quit, is no longer a factor, will i give in. i am certainly not strong enough to say ABSOLUTLY - I WILL NEVER TOUCH IT AGAIN - BUT WILL I BE THAT NEEDY OF IT.
My husband is a firefighter and i have been to many parades, which in turn means i have been around many smokers, and i fear more that i will want it, but when i am face to face with it - i honestly can't say it doesn't cross my mind, but i don't need it enough to be really bothered by it. But once again, this has been while i am pregnant. I seem to fear the fear of "what if i am bothered by it and have the craving" opposed to actually needing it so bad i take a drag. would it be worth starting the patch to rid the craving (yes, after i have the baby of course)?? is that unhealthy since, after this much time i don't have the nicotine in my system? i don't know, but since the countdown to having this baby is slowly going down, my worries become greater not knowing what i will be strong enough to do, or not to do. anyone with any ideas feel free to let me know. good luck to all
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Days: 348
Hours: 20
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