Well last night my fear had already started to sink in about not smoking today. While in bad last night I kept repeating to myself over and over again, mind over matter, mind over matter. Not only silently chanting it but "feeling" it. I was actually optimistic about it. Then I woke up this morning and suprisingly still felt strong enough to want to quit. I continued chanting to myself, mind over matter, mind over matter.
Got up, took a shower, brushed my teeth and got dressed. I went on the computer to do research on the temper pedic mattred because we just puirchased one and my husband and I both have been waking up with the worst back pain. Then it HIT ME!.
Omg, I need a cigarrette. Omg, what am I going to do. I threw out my last cigarette last night, I don't have anymore. I can't do this. ok calm down.......There's cigarette butts in the fireplace. I rush to the fireplace and get a tiny one, light it up....ahhhhhhhh! I just needed two or 3 puffs. Now i feel like I can deal with it. I went to my closet and got the 7mg patch that's been sitting there for almost a yar and put it on. I feel fine...for now.
I am praying I don't feel like that again. If I do. I will buy the higher doses patch again and start all over.
I am so sick of smoking! Get out of my life, loser!! leave me ALONE!!