Do not feel bad Sparky. I lost my 3rd quit after 6 weeks. I have a sliding hiatal hernia, GERD, esphogitis, and a belly button hernia. I was throwing up daily, chest tightness, and severe bloat for 30 days w/ *no* relief. Mind you, I have been sick since July.
The docs at the ER really didnt help me and all they gave me was the GI cocktail, and pain meds. It took 1 week to see a GI doc,a month for the scope, and now 2 weeks for the results of the biopsy (which I am told by the nurses is standard procedure for all scopes). I felt like I was spinning my wheels =( During this time of 'coping', I had chest xrays, CT scan, barium swallow, EKG, and the scope.
I picked up a cig a month ago and I didnt stop until the 21st. My mind was completely fried b/c everyone had been telling me the hernias would not interfer w/ the chest tightness. But yet the chest xrays showed my lungs were in excellent condition. Even the EKG came out very normal. I sit up and the tightness is there but as soon as I lay down, it is gone. My mind is still fried b/c I do not know the results of the biopsy. I jsut feel like all of my inerds are in my chest cavity.
I am coping the best way I know how at this point. I have cried, gotten anger, prayed--name it and I have prolly done it.
Grabbing those smokes was the worse thing for me to do. Tho I thought it helped me, all it did was make me crave *more* and the more I craved, the more I smoked. The more I smoked, the more upset I became. It was a vicious cycle I was in. There was no relief for me.
All I know at this point is that I want it all to stop---I want it all to go away---I want to be a normal person again---I want some kind of relief---Most of all, I want peace again.
Hang in there....because I am holding on w/ both hands too.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/21/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 43
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 48
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Quit Meter
$39,843.83
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 468
Hours: 7
Minutes: 32
Seconds: 37
Life Gained
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3539
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
81,397
Cigarettes Not Smoked