I have waited late in the day to post my 3 months quit, for the past three days it seems as though I have been holding on by a thread. I don't want to smoke, but it's like I don't have any energy to do anything and I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I am forcing my self to go to my sister in-law's birthday party tonight. And I know I am walking into a smoke filled room. I don't think that will bother me because they all know that I have quit smoking and when they come to my house they smoke outside. They are all so proud of me especially someone who is 66 and has smoked for 50 years. I too am very PROUD OF MY QUIT, and I would be devastated should should I in a weak moment smoke... I know why I quit and it is so important to me.
I have been on an anti- depressant for a long time, so I don't know what is wrong with me. I have too much time to think and I guess have too many pity parties. :eg:
I'm still walking, going to my art class, visiting my sick friend, talking to friends on the phone and I do get lots of support from all of them, nothing negative there. I stay busy with the Community Center in my area. I'm in counseling due to the death of my son, grandson, husband and sister. I told my counselor that it seem as though my body has just shut down. And she told me that normal because it was protecting me. Has anyone ever heard of that??
But I don't feel normal, I get ready to go out and if it is not important I don't go. I don't think the smoking has anything to do with this but I may be wrong too!!! Oh, my gosh am I rambling.
I have stayed glued to this site for the past 4 days I have not posted much but I have read so many threads that spoke to me. So I felt no need to post. But I feel safe posting my three months today. Will let you know how the party went. Be thinking of me, thanks SSC for being there for me...
:)
SUNSHINE
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/7/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 90
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,541
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $315
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 58 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43
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Quit Meter
$229,898.25
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6395
Hours: 20
Minutes: 59
Seconds: 51
Life Gained
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45412
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
681,180
Cigarettes Not Smoked
