alexa,
I have read what all these good people are telling you and I know that the information is right. But I want you to know that you are not alone. I have seen and met many people who started their quit just to see if they could do it, not imagining that it would last so long. After all they did not think of themselves as strong people. They did not see themselves as being able to give it up.
Heck, I could not see my self quitting a year ago. I started quitting because my friend at work quit, and in order to protect her quit she would not go out with us at break time. She is 40 and has a lot of personal problems, so I figgured if she could do it so could I. I'm older (not telling)and been smoking nearly 40 years. The closer I got to quitting, the more scared I got, I remember all the horrors of past quits. Short form, I quit..she went back to smoking. I am still quit. But it took me a while to deciede that I absolutely was not going to go back to smoking. As long as I left the option open, I had some problems with craving, after I closed that option it was alot better. A Mind thing! Yes, that is true. I still have an occasional problem time (usually when I am depressed about something else.) but life is better now. I can go out without checking for smokes and lighter, I don't have to worry that the lighter will run out of fuel, I smell better, I know I do because smokers now smell awful to me. I can walk into an elevator that one has been in and I know it. I have more time on my hands, and am trying new things. Life changes... and we move forward, or stall.
Keep on keeping on,
the day will come when you see it all,
Cheryl
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/4/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 282
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,787
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $803.7
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 36 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18
