Pam, for the last 300 days I've watched you proceed through your quit, breezing through some days, struggling some others, and a few that just beat you to a bloody pulp. Then, just under 170 days ago you crashed and burned in an evening of excessive overconfidence (to put it nicely).
But like the Phoenix, you rose from your ashes, admitted your guilt, agonized over your meter, made a personal decision about it (which I applaud, BTW), and got on with a new quit. This quit does not have the same tone, the same feel, as your first. This quit has a solidity to it. I know you've had some rough patches this time, too, but you've handled them with a stronger maturity than before. Your lead post in this thread is proof of that.
We all wish for things that might have been. It's only natural. Happiness, or at least contentment, comes when we are able to accept that they will always be "might have been" and get on with "what is".
Keep craving the quit, Pam.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 325
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,502
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1235
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 60 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 40 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2