Hi all, i'm on day 9 of my quit and I have had 2 SCARY freak outs. During the day is fine but last night and the night before i get a whiff of smoke in my house and that's it i'm off... i sat on my bed sobbing my heart out. I actually couldn't stop the tears flowing! I watched them hit the floor and i can honestly say i've never cried like it. During the same days i was elated i think, all chat about how well i was doing and how i was handling the craves etc.
After each cry i felt a little better. I was reading ChickenStix's post and it made so much sense to me and it really made me laugh out loud. I felt a right idiot crying like i was but it always help's to know someone out there is going through the exact same thing is me.
The odd thing is I know how much i want to stay quit and I have all of the positive feelings going on but suddenly there I am sitting on my bed, legs crossed, hugging a teddy and sobbing my heart out like a little girl again!
I have a bad cold and sore throat now and am coughing up that iccky stuff but it's all good despite that as i'm looking at it as a closer step to being free of the ciggies for good! I won't get to read any posts again until the monday but i pledge to stay smoke free even if i have several hissy fits in the meantime :) Good luck everyone! If i can get through this anyone can, just ride with the crave and know it will pass soon. All of the successful quitters can't be wrong now can they, in saying that it does get better. We all have to start somewhere. That's what i've been doing and thinking even when i'm freaking out! Thanks for being there as it can feel a little lonely sometimes when it's all you want to talk about and analyise but are afraid to bore others too much!
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