I made it......in the grand scheme of things, considering the hell i've put myself thru (my husband told me to put the damn patch back on last night - i was afraid he plaster me with them while I slept!) I have come out relatively unscathed.
I never thought I was a "smug" non-smoker - I had my battles during Hell Week and Heck Week, but I also thought it was strictly mind over matter, and that banishing the junkies and monkeys seemed to be up my alley. After all, I quit drinking 10 years ago......how bad could this be compared to that?
in a word [b]FREAKIN'BAD[/b] (that's two, I know)
I absolutely do not remember thoughts like the ones I had over the past two days grabbing me and not letting me go......to have them 24/7 was unbearable. And the cravings were like someone squeezing my chest and head and not letting go. Indescribable.
But I'm here, alive, and DID NOT HAVE TO RESET MY QUIT METER.
Lemme tell ya, big reward coming my way pretty damn soon....I know it's not over yet. That's the scary part. But I made it thru and I am so thankful to have had this site and all those who posted to see me thru this.......
again, THANKS to luci, fish, gpw, silver, butterfly, tony and brent.
:)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/19/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 43
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 657
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $290.25
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 58 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15