Sunshine, I meant to single you out in one of the above posts. I am so sorry to hear that you lost your husband. Having not lost anyone close to me, I can't sit here and say I know how hard it was for you because I don't have a clue. But I can imagine, and I can feel the pain of others, so my heart goes out to you. Even with what you went through, you choose a screen name that shows you have hope within. I love that attitude! God Bless You, Kizzer [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/17/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 119 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,330 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $874.65 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 13 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32

I took the day off work and spent it at the hospital with my friend. His spirits are better, but his mental process is pretty much a dark fog. He is pretty heavily sedated and that is a good thing. I do think he will fight this and not give up. That is his nature, not the episode that happened the other night. It was so far out of his character that everyone was shocked. But I guess when you hear the words "terminal cancer", who knows how you will react. Myself, my xray is set up for Monday morning and knowing my Dr. I will get the results within an hour or so. Stay tough everyone, Never stop the quit! Kizzer [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/17/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 118 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,327 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $867.3 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 13 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

Today was a better day for him and his wife. His minister was there when I arrived and I was invited to join in. It went well, he has the desire to live now, and that is all that matters at this point. He will be evaced to a cancer center and will get the best treatment available. There is hope here from what I got from talking with the Docter. It seems that the lower lobe of the left lung is where the cancer is, and not the upper section. For whatever reason, this is better than the other way around. Also, the spot is smaller than at first thought, about the size of an asprin. At first, they thought it was the size of an orange, but decided alot of that was scar tissue. I have hope and so does he. Prayers, that is all anyone can ask for. Thanks to everone for there support, it really helps! Kizzer [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/17/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 120 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,400 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $882 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 15 [B]Seconds:[/B] 22

I write this with a heavy heart and a sullen attitude. I am angry, I am hurting and I feel helpless. Today started like any other day, but ended up being one of the worst days of my life. Today, life smacked me hard and brought me to my knees. Today I ask for prayers. I received a call this afternoon from my best friends wife. She was incoherent and manic. Unable to understand what was going on, I got in my truck and drove to their house 50 miles away to see what was going on. Upon arrival, several police officers were standing outside their home. They had a road block set up, so I parked my truck and pleaded with an officer to tell me what was going on. He said he didn't have the authority to tell me. I told him that this was my best friends house, we have been friends for almost 40 years, best friends for 40 years and I demanded to know what was going on. The officer called another deputy over and I was escorted to the corded off area in front of the house. My best friends wife was in the front seat of an officers car and when she seen me she bolted out of the car and squeezed me with power I didn't know existed. I still was unable to understand her, but I knew something seriously was wrong. To shorten this up. I found out my best friend, 40 freakin years of he and I doing everything together, was holed up inside the home, threatening to commit suicide! NO FREAKIN way!! This guy had it all, he is 46 and a year away from retirement. His whole life is ahead of him..... Or so I thought. You see, today he found out he has lung cancer. Today he found out he does not have his whole life ahead of him. Today he found out that he has less than 6 months to live. I was able to talk him out of the house. He is now resting in a hospital bed. He needs prayer. He was a heavy smoker, like I was. He smoked for 33 years, like I did. He quit about 8 months ago, 4 months before I did. I am going to set up an appointment for a chest xray, I feel vulnerable and wayward. I want a miracle to happen for my best friend, I want him to heal. If you read this and smoke.... Stop. That is all the advise I can give you. There is no magical potions out there, the quit lives inside you, expose this desire to quit and do it now. Smoking is a bastard

Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts of prayer. This isn't easy to deal with, but in life, we get handed things we just don't want. These things are a test of our souls. They test our character and our devotion. Right now, all we have is prayer. The rest is in the hands of my best friends God. Thanks once again. Your words do mean alot. Kizzer [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/17/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 118 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,295 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $867.3 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 18 [B]Seconds:[/B] 33

Kizzer: Praying for you and hugging you right now !! CJ [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/8/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 127 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,547 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $355.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 50

Kizzer, I will keep you and your friend in my prayers Cuddles [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/11/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 31 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 625 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $111.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 39

kizzer i read this with real tears in my eyes,never has that happend to me on this site befor. i have nothing to say my friend only that you are a very good friend to have!god i wish i had a majic wand to wipe fags off the face of the earth and to smother all memorys of them. i dont prey but i do wish you all to find some kind of peace right now . jan xxxx

We are praying for you and your best friend. Don't give up hope. We won't. Mc

I hope this story opens the eyes of someone and inspires them to keep going. It is a proven fact that Smoking will kill you. Kizzer... you are all in my prayers. Let us know if there is anything we can do to help. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 256 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,127 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $896 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 22 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9