Hello everyone and thankyou for all for the support, some very wise words were said and i listened to them intently. Yesterday I smoked 5 cigs and then threw the pack away before i went to bed. I havnt had any today, I know i dont want to go back to that so i am back to the quit again. Most of the time it is ok, i can cope but when it gets like it did yesterday, i just could not stand it any more. I just hope next time it gets like that (cus i know it will) i will be able to ride out the storm. I am not putting my quit meter back, i think i have worked too hard for it to just be cancelled out. I will know what i have done every time i look at it. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 49 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,483 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �117.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8

i have just returned from the shops with some beers, i went for beers and cigs but just couldnt do it, i wanted to so badly. I got back in the car and drove a little further down the road to the next store that sells cigs, i parked outside for 30 minutes going through the "go ahead and buy some" V "no you are doing so well" argument, the quit won this time, but for how much longer. I am tired of fighting this, i knew it was going to be tough but not for this long, in fact is has got harder instead of easier, i dont know if i can keep this up. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 48 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,459 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �115.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

Hi bambi, How ya doin' now? I hope things are o.k. I felt the same as you did around my 45th day. I posted here and oodles of great people came along to help me see that I was doing it. And you know what? So are you!! You will feel better soon, so please, please, please, just hang in there. Think back to your first week. Are ya done thinking? Good!.... Now remember how bad you wanted that quit meter to climb higher and higher? Well, look at you now!! 48 days!!! That's almost 7 WEEKS!!! I know you don't want to lose that! This is just another rough spot to get through, and you CAN and Will!!! Keep Strong, [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [IMG]http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e58/saggysac/sign%20offs/Finger_fing31.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 106 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,561 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $879.8 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 24

Bambi... Go back and read Shevies post again. And if that doesn't work, read it one more time! :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 290 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,813 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1015 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9

Bambi... that talk that Shevie had with you was really good and you should listen to him. Quitting is probably one of the hardest things that you will ever do. Getting support from people who never smoked or people that still smoke is impossible. That is why this site is so successful. We have been where you are and we know the struggles you are going through. I don't know many people that quit one time and that's it for forever. I know I tried to quit several times before this one. I say that it is the support of those on this site that made the difference for me and made this quit stick. That talk from Shevie is the kind of thing that kept me going. Your quit has to come from inside of you. None of us can do it for you but there is strength in numbers. There are a whole lot of us on this quit journey with you. I have often referred to it as the road less travelled. The nice thing about the SSC is that we are one big happy quit family. When one falls, we jump in to help you get back on your feet again. When you can't walk straight on your own, lean on us. That is why we are here. Quitting isn't easy but you don't have to do it alone. There are so many here going through the same thing with you. So....here is my hand...let us help you up and get going again along this road. At the end of this road lies freedom and you are just going to love how it makes you feel. Ready? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 290 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,818 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1015 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 21 [B]Seconds:[/B] 12

Bambi... not only can you do it, you are doing it! How awesome... fighting with yourself for 30 minutes and you won! Amazing. I know exactly what you mean. When I was where you are I was so tired of fighting as well. I just didn't want to do it anymore. I posted, much like you have here and I will tell you what others told me. Hang in there. You have 48 days under your belt and there is no way you want to repeat those. It does get better but it takes time. The quit road is long and it is hard full of bumps along the way but hang in there because real soon now things are going to start looking a whole lot better. I promise you that the freedom you will find is worth every bit of agony you are going through right now. Stick around and see if you don't agree. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 290 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,813 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1015 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45

Bambi, The title of this thread is "I don't think I can do this." That reminds me of that saying by Henry Ford (I Think?) that says "whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're right." So which is it? Can you or can't you? Only you can decide that. We're here to help you along and pick you up and dust you off, but you've got to WANT to get back up and go at it again. 48 days is nothing to laugh at! That's an incredible accomplishment, and if you can do it once, then you can do it again... IF you want to. [quote] So here I am drinking and smoking, but what do I do next, I am already having to clear my throat [/quote] What you do is entirely up to you. Only you can decide that. This quitting thing isn't easy... it takes guts, determination, confidence, a positive attitude, perserverance and an overwhelming desire to quit that supercedes your desire to smoke. Do you have that? I know you do because if you didn't, then you couldn't have stayed quit for 48 days! So find that strength within you again and go one more round with the nicodemon. Don't let him win this time!!! Crave the Quit! Pam [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 172 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,300 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $710.36 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 16

Bambi, I'm glad you're back to the quit. The meter is a personal decision and whatever will work to keep you on track and not smoking is the right decision. For me, I felt that I was more honest with myself when I reset my meter... and that was the one that worked... but you have every right to keep it where it is if that's what will work to keep you quit. The important thing isn't the meter... it's that you're not smoking. Next time you get to that point, make sure you come here FIRST before giving up your quit again. That really does help. Just remember that we're always here for you to encourage and support you. This site is a very valuable resource... use it when you don't think you can do it alone. One more thing, I really hope you look at what happened and try to learn about it. A "slip" can be an eye-opening, life changing experience. So take the time to figure out what happened, why it happened and what you will do next time to prevent that from happening. I really hope this slip isn't in vain. Learn from this. Bambi, I'm glad you're back at the quit. Keep it up! Crave the Quit! Pam [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 172 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,311 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $710.36 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37

Bambi, Congratulations on not caving in a very tempting situation! Everytime you do that, you get a little stronger and stronger. I know it's hard right now and it seems like it'll never end, but do you think that there would be people who have been quit for 1, 2, 5 or even 20 years if it didn't get better?!?! Of course not! Quitting DOES get easier and I look at those with more days quit as a source of hope because they prove that it CAN be done and that it DOES get better... eventually. Take the advice from others here... go get a reward for all the hard work you've done... that should make you feel better! I hope you start feeling better soon. Crave the Quit! Pam [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 171 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,292 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $706.23 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

Hi, Bambi. Good for you for not giving in to the junkie thoughts. I understand the "tired of fighting this" feeling; felt it myself a few times - long ago. Some folks seem to have a bit of depression and tiredness in their quit around the 50 day mark. I think, regardless of the time into the quit, that these problems are brought on by lack of rewards. Rewards are something we often talk about, but it seems few of us really understand their power. So often we think that quitting is something terrible we have to push ourselves through in order to achieve something that has been called "freedom". When we start thinking this way, we begin to focus on the current misery and less on the future. After all, �freedom� is soooooo far away and perhaps doesn't even exist at all. Quitting is not some terrible thing we must endure for some indefinite time in order to achieve some vague concept. Quitting is something very good we do for ourselves and the ones we love because we know it is the right thing to do. And like anything worth doing, it is not always easy. When we go to school for a degree, we focus on the ultimate goal of graduation when the individual days of studying, tests, reports, etc. get us down. When we have a career, we focus on the ultimate goal of a particular position and/or salary and/or title when the daily drudgery begins to grind us down. When we build something, we focus on the end result when we bang, cut, or burn a finger. We refocus on the end result instead of the current misery because we know what we suffer today will ultimately be worth it. When we quit, this refocusing becomes more difficult because of the inherent depression/emotional issues that the nicotine deprivation causes. It is so easy to slip into a black hole of despair on days like you�ve been having. That�s where the rewards come in. They elevate your mood and help your brain undo the damage that nicotine has created. Think physical therapy for the brain. Go out and do something nice for yourself, Bambi. You have not smoked in 48 days. For 48 days you have denied and controlled one of the strongest, perhaps [u]the[/u] strongest, addictions known. That is an awesome accomplishment and [u]deserves[/u] to be rewarded. Shevie [B]My Milage:[