Hello everyone,
I want to say again I am overwhelmed by the posts and welcome open arms of all.I never expected such a response like this!! My past 2 attempts to quit failed. The first time I used the patch and had terrible nightmares.After speaking to my doctor he told me to take off the patch at night. I did this but then during the day I started to get tremors. Spoke to my doctor again and he said I needed to stop using the patch. I can't take Zyban because I am very sensitive to medications and have terrible reactions. I was on Zyban for over 2 weeks and almost committed suicide. Embarring to say that but it's the truth. I also went to a hypnotist but it didn�t work. I used the gum and lozenges� but got terrible soars in my mouth. What really threw me off my quit is that someone started my home of 24 years on fire at 3 am. That put me back to smoking. My throat has been hurting me for some time now and I come to realize that I will be dealing with stress for the rest of my life. I want to quit and this time I will succeed. I�m tired of being an addicted to nicotine and always worrying if I�m going to get cancer. My health isn�t that great and it�s time I do something about it. I�m still a little afraid but nothing like before. Something inside me has changed as far as my outlook on quitting.
As far as my old friends since the arson no one knows where I live. My home is being fixed and will be sold. I really don�t want to go back because I never want to go through that terrible experience again. The police and bomb and arson all know who did it but she can�t be arrested unless someone actually saw her do the act. It�s a long story and some day I�ll share. But the pain of this is still so new it�s hard to talk about it right now.
Tomorrow after my laser treatment which is at 1:45 pm, I�m being taken to see my doctor. I need for him to take a quick look at my throat and make sure it�s alright. I was tested for cancer this past December and am very fortunate that no cancer was found. I want to keep it that way. I�ll post when I get home and let everyone know how I�m doing.
Again, I would like to say that I am overwhelmed by the responses by all of you kind, caring, and wonderful people on this site. I was starting to loose my fait