I have had depression and anxiety for over 10 years... Then began experiencing PTSD after a traumatic experience(s) stemming 6 years ago..I deal with it then I don't or simply do not have the energy to do so. I'm good them I'm really not.. Which brings me to now... I have nothing left in me... This has caused my relationship with my boyfriend of over 2.5 years to end, he brought the dog with him, I can't sleep, I have no bed (due to an incident with the cat-not his fault) so I am sleeping on the most uncomfortable couch in the work, honestly I usually end up on the floor. I have zero friends or people I can talk to about anything at all.. My son just started school and is having a difficult time adjusting due to all these new changes... I just feel like what's it even worth anymore.. more and more I have to try to convince myself to even get out of bed, or to eat anything, then when I do it's to excess... I'm not okay. I am going to see my doctor on Thursday to potentially take some time off as it is all getting too much and I fear what may happen if I don't lighten my load a little at least for now.. But there is the guilt and the failure... and I am trying to make my way in this social work field, so I don't want to go because it will be looked down on PLUS I can't even get adequate help because I refer my clients to these people or know them through networking! I am at a complete loss of what to do... On one hand I know I need time to get my head on straight and won't be able to continue much longer like this and on the other hand, what if they reprimand me (not directly, but through not hiring me for other contracts, etc) and what if I don't have enough money for bills because I took this time off...Please help... I just really need someone..
