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9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

This has been a quiet place lately. I keep checking for new posts. Finished the Mindfulness workshop this week. I know I am going to miss it on Monday nights. I need to keep motivated to practice the meditation. Lots of leader lead meditations can be found on the web. I have been experimenting with them. Have a couple of favourites.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

I finished reading, The Gift of Imperfection today. I loved it. There was a portion in it that talked about dancing. That so many people are embarrassed of being seen dancing, because of thinking that they might look silly or appearing goofy, out of rhythm etc. Yet the author talked of the joy of dancing. Last night I went out, even though I was at work during the day, had to buy groceries in the way home, then get chores done to prepare for today's snowstorm. Yes I was tired, but made myself get all prettied up and off I went to the bar for a fund raiser for battered women (plus St. Paddy's day). I got to dance with the girls for an hour and it was GREAT. I love to dance and it really helped to lift my mood. I really needed that. This past week had been one of the most depressed ones I have had since changing meds. Began to feel rough on Tuesday at work. Wednesday was a day off, I just stayed home. Thursday was even worse and I called in saying I was sick. Friday I went to work, but I was in tears after talking to a couple of aggressive complaining male customers. I began to get better as the day went on. Went to a dinner party Friday evening. Being with friends and having a laugh was so needed by me. Could not stay late as had to be at work at 9 Saturday morning. The point of this whole story, dance and dance some more. It is good for me.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

I have spent the last couple of days reading a really nice book, The Gift of Imperfection. It really speaks to me on fear of failure and thinking my efforts are not good enough. The is some discussion on shame. Something I see to have a lot of. Ashamed of not being pretty enough, thin enough, fast enough etc.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

Tonight was first night at the Mindfullness Workshop. Interesting. I have home work to do each morning. Instructor asks us to make time each morning for the meditation practice. Seems like I will have to set my alarm for 1/2 hour earlier. This seems like a good use of the Behaviour Experiment Form.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

Thank you for responding Aero. You are very right, there are many people who read the messages here and do not respond. I can feel the benefit of just writing down one's thoughts. I could just concentrate on that feature of this discussion board. Yes it can be difficult to find words that could be helpful to others. Sometimes I read about the difficulties that some other people have and wish I could say something that would offer some comfort. A scary thought of perhaps making someone feel worse by saying something wrong. Thanks again for answering.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 6

Hi galianna.....I just read the entire thread, and I feel really bad that you feel lonely here, I feel the same way...I've only posted twice, and didn't get much in reply. I think I would feel better just to post on my own, without worrying whether I get responses or not but easier said than done. Every time I read someone's post I want to reply, just because I don't want you or anyone else feeling like they're alone here just like I do sometimes, but when it comes down to it I just can't find the right words to type or I feel like anything I have to say is dumb anyway. I will try to say Hi to you when I can, but if I don't please don't think that you're alone because I (and probably others) are just more scared of responding.

Good job calling lifeworks!! I did that before starting these sessions....I was referred to a counselor in person though because I am a bit wary of talking on the phone as well. I had 6 sessions with my counselor and walked away with some important skills, but 6 sessions wasn't nearly enough so that's why I came here.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

Big step for me today! I called LifeWorks and have made appointment for phone counselling that will begin Tuesday evening. I did this for two reasons. 1) One of my goals is to get more comfortable making phone calls where I am not certain of the outcome. Reaching out for any kind of help is hard for me. 2) This week I started a withdrawal from meds that I have counted on for many years, so that I can change to an anti-depression drug that is supposed to be helpful for chronic pain. For this transition period, I am worried that I could become more depressed as one drug leaves my body and before any benefit could be gained from the new one. My plan is to have some sort of safety net in place just in case I need it. Yes, I have been thinking about calling LifeWorks for a few days now. Today I kept putting it off over and over. I was telling myself, "I will just get my chores done first" then it was, "I will just have dinner first." You get the idea. Finally ran out of ideas for putting it off. Felt a sense of relief afterwards.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

I decided to step out side my comfort zone and into the hole in the ice at the annual fire department fund raiser. Yes in -8 C temperatures. That's about 22 degrees to you Americans. Only 2 people there that I knew, which is an achievement for me to mingle with strangers. It was really exciting after paying the fee and standing in line for my turn. Met a nice lady who jumped with me. She mentioned that she saw a handsome fire fighter. I was momentarily distracted from the task at hand. Could not fine the one she was talking about. 22 crazy people jumped with about 200 spectators. I did this also in 2013, on a -20 C day. Figured today would be much easier. I did get some scratches and burses on my legs, because the lady fire fighter was not strong enough to help me out. I bet that mystery handsome fire fighter would have done a better job.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 65

Thank you for reaching out Linda. I have not had much success at keeping a man for an extended period. 8 years is the best I have done so far. The next best was 5 years, darn it he had to go and die on me. He was my third great love. I figure I have the capacity to love again. I like to think that I am on a "Catch and Release" program. When you said you and your husband are not getting along at present, I thought of a large type of business card that was given to me by a person who is a life coach 'William Glasser style'. The card lists habits that can help or hinder relationships. Caring Habits: Respecting, Encouraging, Supporting, Listening, Negotiating Differences, Trusting, Accepting. Deadly Habits: Bribing, Blaming, Complaining, Nagging, Threatening, Criticizing, Punishing. If partners could practice the Caring Habits as much as possible, I expect many relationships would last longer. I pinned the card up at work to help me to remember to stop blaming and complaining.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 44

Hi galianna,

No you are not alone. I haven't posted myself in a long time. I did well over the summer and fall but since Christmas I have found myself plummeting again. Every year I want Christmas to not be about the gifts but every year it is...I don't want to sound ungrateful, but I spend so much time dealing with received gifts...unwrapping, throwing out paper, packages and trying to find a new home for them that it overwhelms me and takes away from the joy of the season...all I want to do is enjoy time with my family. I am a bit OCD and do like to feel in control and I feel smothered in all this stuff coming into my home....less is more and I feel like I could just walk out the door to a simpler life. I am aware if the stress and negative emotions because of being overwhelmed. My husband and I are not getting along...I now want to just curl up and do nothing. I hope that this helps you to know that you are not alone. Take care.

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