I have been following this program for 10 days. While I am finding this an interesting exercise, I am still counting the days till a new Med the Doctor has provided kicks in. I am not good at reaching out to others for help.
I like to think of myself as a high functioning depressed person. I go to work, I try to be cheerful, I do interesting things. BUT inside I am working hard to get everything I expect of myself accomplished. I probably just think I am hiding it well. Perhaps others know and I am just kidding myself.
Began to be very anxious about 6 weeks ago. Having a harder time coping with a sometimes stressful job. My depression gives me the feeling that I am coming down with the flu, yet I know I am not. Very tired feeling, shaky and lots of heart burn. I learned this spring that the noise of all the other people in my work space, can really stress me out. I thought the discovery of the cause would help me control the feelings. Had high hopes of the work place becoming quieter when the temporary university students went back to class. Yes there was a quiet week, then the room filled up again with full timers who had been pushed out of my area by the student project. Now I believe it is louder than it was before.
I think the goals worksheet might help me out, as I choose the goal of spending more time with my horse. I had not spent much time with the horse over the past year. Mostly I just took care of her needs of food, shelter and making sure she was healthy. So one of my goals is to just have some fun with the horse. No expectations of accomplishing any great training goals. Just to have play time.
Wish me luck.
