Hello,
My name is Shannon and I am 41 and living on my own for the first time in 10 years and across the country, which I've never lived in my life. I know no one and am volunteering doing research so not a lot of interaction with people.
I have MDD, PTSD (currently not an issue), on the light end of Borderline Personality Disorder and Anxiety. I've suffered from them since about 1997 and it all stemmed from childhood trauma and then things into adulthood and beyond.
I am functional and get things done when I have to be accountable, but I am never accountable to myself and a huge procrastinator. I love to plan new things but then never finish them.
I am trying to use the blog feature here if anyone wants to follow, feel free.
I am here to learn new coping skills so I can not fall apart every time something goes wrong. My coping skills suck! Granted, even my therapist has said many times that this much "bad" is not "normal". I feel validated in that I have had many terrible and traumatic things happen to me, but it is hard because I know there are others who have it much worse! I do not play the victim or manipulate but I did in my teens and 20's when I learned how to make it work for me to survive.
I have a tendency to compartmentalize a bit more than is healthy, because really, what else can you do (pragmatic much?) And then, when I stumble across something that opens Pandora's box, well then I fall down and it is hard to get back up. I'm overly sensitive, very empathic (which causes me problems quite a bit) and an introvert with extroverted tendencies.
Anyway, my first intro was much better. At least I didn't give up and tried again. Hi! *waves*
