Hello,
I am new to Depression Center site. I thought I'd join with hopes the program might help me improve my moods and thoughts, as well as help me find others to connect with. A place I could offer support and advice, and receive the same.
I chose stargazing as my username because I find myself feeling my best when I'm out in nature, especially when stargazing.
My story:
I struggle with depression as well as an anxiety disorder all my life. (social anxiety, performance anxiety). It wasn't until I was in my late twenties that I realized what I was struggling with. I went on medication because I'd gotten into having panic attacks. I stayed on the meds for about 4 years and was feeling so good I thought I might be ok without the meds. With doctor's approval I tried going off the medication. That didn't last long.
I went back on medication after a month or two of being off.
Unfortunately, the medication hasn't seemed to be as effective as it was before. It works for the anxiety issues - but doesn't help as well with the depression. (I am more depressed now than I when I was on the medication before) So I'm grateful the anxiety is under control, but find myself angry and frustrated and sad that I can't better handle the depression.
I had a fulltime job, but left for school. Did well in school, excelled. Thought I'd be fine in workforce. But once in work force I couldn't handle the job with my mental/emotional struggles. Now I work part time and worry about future.
I live with my parents now, but worry about the future. I don't want to be a burden on my siblings later in life, but I can't afford to live on my own.
My mom's understanding, but I feel bad if I struggle too much and let her know. (again, don't want to be a burden, or a downer to family/friends, however I am how I am and need to express myself and have support)
So that's my story with depression and anxiety in a nutshell.
Hope to connect with others :)
