After many months working on CBT and getting educated about mental health disorders finally I found my way. This happened about 1 month ago when I decided I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life doing CBT or any other form of therapy for controlling my depression. I stopped CBT and all the readings and after this decision the mood swings I experienced stopped completely.
I tried to quit CBT several times before that but without success and I ended depressed again. What was different this time? I think, unlike before, this time I was ready to let go my emotional struggles. I felt I had learned everything that can be learned about depression and as a good CBT student :) I came to understand pretty well the relationship between my emotions, thoughts and behaviours. There was anything more (reasonable) I could do to get better. This led me to the only choice I had: To let go my struggles with depression.
I just want to give hope to other people who are dealing with depressions that better days will come and to not accept the fact that depression is a condition for life. Depression is a serious illness that can be successful treated. I talk from personal experience because my problems with depression started about 9 years ago (with the age of 30) and now I am feeling the way I felt on my twenties, this meaning I am cured from depression.
The real freedom happens when you finally found your way and Let Go.
