I had a job that I loved, but after the contract ended, and I was laid off in the institution, I accepted the layoff. I spoke to my counsellor first because I didnt want to make a rash decision, ie losing my seniority, security, potential to return to job i loved. She said it wouldnt be rash, that I would certainly find another position. So I accepted my layoff with a small severence package. Then my father became ill and died a month later. I got another job a month after htat but became so depressed I chose to resign as my doctor wanted me to take a medical leave. So here I am a month and a half off work. I do not like being off work. I spend alot of time searching for positions online. I have started applying. I feel afraid, I feel afraid noone will ever hire me. I have regret for leaving position, had I known how things would have turned out I would not have. I have been in a major depression the last month, and was diagnosed with chronic dysthymia so I have "double depression". I just changed my meds to wellbutrin 300 mg/day. starting the cbt program on this website. I just dont like to be scared. I have never worked before!!! Thank you for reading this.
