In this program It seems like we are being challenged to just be aware... a lot. And I think I'm beginning to get that because I am starting to actually hear the negative voices... I mean before the tapes would run and I didn't hear them but just felt really awful and didn't exactly know why. Now, I've started to hear the "You are a stupid, worthless, waste of space loser!" (that's the nicer version) I did not realize how much that was going on inside. Now that I can hear the negative self-talk... and as long as I remember to listen... I find I can also say "Wait a second...." and challenge those negative thoughts. Does that make any sense? Or am I just a nutcase and this is all just a bunch of BS (which is what my inner voice is saying right now, but I'm challenging it... sort of) ~m
Thank you for the encouragement and outside perspective. I didn't realize I was ending every post that way. There is definitely something to this "being aware" ... my tendency is to try to beat myself into behaving "rightly" ... it is really so much easier (and more productive) to sit back and observe... then move forward gently with understanding and compassion. What a concept! 
Is it? I would never think that of someone else... much less say it to them. I don't know why I do that to me, but will try to address myself in a more positive manner. Oh, cr*p! I just set another goal. <sigh>
You are intelligent, insightful, and a real trooper! I am proud of you and how you are progressing!
