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15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 18

hi ladybug,

i think making a wish list really helps.......

make a wish list........all the things u wanna do......(in the near future)

then prioritize........by thinking
1) which things not done will affect your life......

2) things that you love doing.....

the top wishes become your goals............for the near future.........

when m confused and dont really know what i want to do.....(as i m right nw...)

what i want from life......i start setting short term goals.....keeping in mind my likes.........within some time the road ahead gets cleared............hopefully...........u will also come to know what you exactly want......

n as far as failure is concerened.....its well said "Failure is a step towards success"

i think we need to give our 100% and not worry about the result........

i know its easy to say but difficult to do......

atleast by doing so we wont regret of not giving our best...... we will be satisfied.......then whatever the result might be.......

- RAY

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3

Hi all, its Ladybug a.k.a Dazed and Confused...

the joy of ups and downs.... i was reading through some of the sessions and once i got to the homework, i got overwhelmed, shee this, sheet that, and right away i felt my procrastination kick in... ahhh ..... god.. this is going to be hopeless...

I've had an annoying day, actually overall it was ok, was just annoying myself being me, so when i was meeting my friend today for our regular walk in the park, i got annoyed with the people in the park in the parking lot.... it was a busy day in the park and getting parking was a battle and patience was not on my side, so that totally added to my daily dose of annoyance :(... i really dont know why i got so annoyed over a parking spot, but it pretty much got me in a funk for the rest of the night...

I saw my ex again this week after a couple months of not seeing him?... just tired to deal with these situation... he tells me that things will be different.... I'm just not sure...

I think i just want my 'zest' back to have that feeling that i can get anything done, i just feel that in the past few years i've been waiting for my life to start, its like i have been a passenger in my own life but not living it, the past few years have been a blur :(...

My mandra was/is 'where there is a will, there is a way' right now i'm just stuck on this 'i want, i want, i want' mentality of 'gimme gimme never get'... :( i'm tired of waiting for my life to start, i feel like i'm waiting for some sign that i can move on to better things... i just don't know what that is yet... I'm usually a planner and plan out how i want things to be done, but now a days im just indifferent .. and i dont know what is holding me back, fear- am i not going to be good at my next job, failure- i'm screwed up....... I make plans to improve my career situation, but is it something that i really want to be doing, or am i just doing it to be doing something, hoping that once i finish this next step, i will have a change of pace for the next couple of yrs and then i will find myself in the same old rut, not happy with the job, not happy with myself, not happy with my life...

Main issues:

- bored with my job/ financial worry

- have a bit of the 'case of the ex'

- overall bored :(

God good thing this is anonmous, cuz i sound quite pathetic, I just reread this... Oh well... maybe someone can enjoy some of my rants...

so far my daily goal is to keep up with my readings for my self-pace course i'm taking and still doing my daily walks... for the most part the walks help, but even that some times spending too much time with my friends can be a bit overwhelming, too much talk, people love to talk talk talk..

That's all for now... I'm gonna try and catch up on some of the activitiy sheets... they weren't kidding when they said this is a lot of work...

Later,

Ladybug

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3046

Hey, Ladybug,

Congratulations on accomplishing so much and taking so many positive steps recently!! You should be proud of yourself. It's normal to have ups and downs, good days and challenging ones. Keep focused on how you are coping with the tough ones, and enjoy the easy ones. I know we all so easily say 'think positive', but it does and will help.

It's great that you know what you want to change in your life. It sounds like you have made at least one positive change- the walking and stress-free time for yourself. That is huge!! Really! Keep at it. How do you feel about using the Activity Tracking Sheet? What did you used to have in your life that you had 'zest' for?

Tiana, Health Educator

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3

Hi Ashely,

This is Dazed and Confused, I had a password re-set issue with my Dazed and Confused account, I'll be used the Ladybug account from now on... Sorry for the confusion..

Well since my last post, I am started some of the Activity track sheet.... I also went to see a counselor for the first time... That went interestingly, I felt like a little school girl, crying over spilled milk... sometimes i feel like a basket case, one minute i feel all normal, the next i get all emotional and try to contain it and hide it, thinking if people really knew how i feel they would totally agree that i'm a basket case....

the past week has had ups and down, almost called in sick to work on friday, but talked myself into going to work. Thursday i fell asleep crying about how pathetic my life/ career is... I'm worried about my job security, as it is in Sales and sales have been down with the economy.

you asked if it was working what would be different?-- I guess the answer is that I want to feel happy, I want to feel alive, i want to have a purpose, working towards a goal like i'm actually accomplishing something productive in life.... Sometimes or lately i should say, it just feels that i do the same grind over and over, work home, work home, work home...

what would be the same-- well hopefully that i will be able to uncover that zest i used to have to be able to do anything i wanted..

I have started walking/ jogging almost everyday with a friend which i feel is helping, at least for that 1-2 hrs of walking daily i stop thinking about all the other issues...

That's enough rambling for now, seems that's all i can do with this scatterbrain at this time..

Till later,

Ladybug

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11226

Hi Dazed and Confused,

Welcome to the group. It sounds like you have a lot on your mind right now. I am glad you have come here to take care of yourself. This program will help you understand and work on depression. Make a schedule for when you plan on working on the program and stick to it. This program works, it takes time and work but it will help.

Also, post often. You are not in this alone. We are here to help you through this.

You mention that you feel like you can't get this part of your life to work. If it was "working" what would be different? What would be the same?

Ashley, Health Educator

Here to help :)

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1

Hello All, this is my first time writing.... I've realized I think I have a problem with depression.... as many of you will probably agree that you tried to talk yourselves out of it, that your not depressed, that your just having the bluessss.. or SAD (Seasonal Affected Disorder), but when my moods and emotions still didnt get better after the winter months, I realized that my condition is getting worse...

... I guess I have alway been dealing with depression from a young age, but I was always trying to reason with myself that I couldnt be suffering from depression, as for the most part I come from a normal family, have good friends, have an ok job, to the outside person, my life should be just peachy... but unfortunately, I dont see it like that, I've been called a cynic several times over the past 3 years, I just always viewed myself as a harsh realist, where some people say I'm a pessimist.... "my depression for the most part has been getting worse over the past 3 years, after a very sad break-up, which is still unresolved... he now wants us to try and see if we can work on things to get back together, I dont know if i can try that, as i dont know if i have trust that i won't be hurt again...that we can work again... i know he wasns kids, i'm not sure i want kids, never was crazy sold on the idea.. he thinks i need to investigate why i dont want kids???... I think i know why i dont want kids, but he thinks that its just me running away from life... " Lord... sometimes its just too hard to have to deal with all these issues, i'm a fairly educated female, who can have the world at my fingertips, and i feel like a 2nd grader feeling all emotional because i can't figure out how to make the next part of my life work...

Feel free to shed some light on this...

P.s. sorry for any typo's, its usually my pet-peeve, but at times, i'm past the point of spell check

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