Hi Strength,
My progress:
I wrote a while ago about how I couldn’t remember things I felt before
being depressed. I still don’t, really, but after several weeks of CBT
with a counsellor, I’ve realized I was always a fairly melancholy
person, so maybe the is nothing tremendously happy for me to remember.
And I think that’s OK. The counselling and medication seem to have been
effective. I’m not ‘better’ yet, but I don’t dwell on the bad thoughts
like I used to. I’d say 90% of the time I’m back to normal. If I’m
alone, and tired, I sometimes get to feeling very negative, but it
doesn’t last.
I find I have begun to seek out the company of friends more. I was
always somewhat asocial. Not antisocial, but I preferred to be by
myself, which can be a problem if you’re prone to depression. So even
though I’m alone in my office, I take breaks to visit coworkers, and
sometimes take my laptop and work in more public areas. It helps.
My doctor say he expects I’ll be on meds for another six months to a
year. I’m feeling pretty optimistic right now that that will be
sufficient. I may ask about cutting back the dosage though, as I find
myself occasionally a little manic - seeking attention, interrupting
people, nothing too bad, just annoying.
So, in general, I’m doing OK.
