My boss drove down from San Francisco today so we could have a "girls" day. We hung out, had lunch, and a really good discussion about work and depression. I didn't know that she'd been through it too at one point in her life. She told me what she wants to see from me-- to take two more paid weeks off, and be back March 15 for one specific project. She doesn't want me to worry about the other parts of my job temporarily, but to ease back in. I really was planning on hitting it full bore on Wednesday.
Um, I cried. In a really nice restaurant too. I was so grateful that it went beyond words. I had to suck it up pretty fast though because it was a very nice place and we were talking about work.
She also brought me a box of chocolate to "boost the anti-depressant".
Today was the first day that I didn't sleep most of the day. I'm tired, feeling a little goofy from going out, and medicine side effects (which are still pretty mild). But it was a good day. I was still able to answer my phone, to get out, to interact. And I am so grateful grateful grateful. I know I'm not better yet. I know that it's going to take more time, but I'm heading in the right direction. I am truly thanking God I have people here to support me, and people here in my life who understand too. Not all of them do, but the ones who are important to me are doing their best to understand.
Just checking in.
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That means a lot.
