this is the first time in 10 years i am celebrating christmas. Now that i asm celebrating it. i think the lady i am caring for may be going into a nurisng home. If that's so, my best friend and i have no place to live. Pat (the lady i care for) is not doing well. i work 24/7 (the physical hours i don't work, i am on call). Pat is very verbally abusive, and i am really depressed because this caring for her is all a negitave cycle that starts over every morning. she has given up on life, and feel she should be in a nursing home, instead of running everyone into the ground. Is that selfish? i am one of those people she is running into the ground. the one day i get out to do my thing and hang out with friends, i loose 2 of them to a huge misunderstanding and now they weant to beat me up.