Pete, I am so sorry to hear about your father's death. It will be a year in November that dad has been gone a year. Unbelievable how losing our parents effects our life.
Applying that to the topic.....it is more tangible. I do think we can make it more tangible for us. With us both having lost parents recently, I hope not to step on your toes nor to worsen your thinking.
But I was thinking about an autoposy of myself. What did I have, what do I have - of course, we know the cause - those short-wired little neurotransmitters, but looking at what we had, what we STILL HAVE! Looking at what are goals were, looking at what are goals ARE! Things we were grateful for then, Things we are grateful for NOW!
I catch myself saying some many times ....I used to..... referring to pre-morbid functioning (pre-depression days).
One way I've learned to cope with my mom's death 3 years ago and dads death last year was to remember the good times. If I get sad, I think of those happy times, a funny thing that happened. I'm not saying I still don't get overwhelmed with emotions, but focusing on what did happen when they were around in stead of dwelling on them not being here is definitely a coping mechanism.
Taking that same concept and applying it to me with depression - I can't focus on what I used to be, how articulate I used to be, how I loved to go and do, be the life of the party, tell jokes, hang out with friends, work, school, civic duties, volunteering, parenting, yada yada yada. If Ihave to focus on who I am now. I have difficulty accepting invitations to go places though I make myself. I want to sleep all the time, I want things done but lack the perserverence to get them done. I can't get my words to come out of my mouth (when speaking), my thoughts get jumbled, I have difficulty concentrating, I isolate. Geez, I can go on and on just like each of you. However, I think the key is to focus on where I am going. I am going to remember the good times, I am going to miss what I lost, I don't necessarily like that I have to live without those things today, but I can't make things any different, therefore I am going to work with what I have to day. Is it realistic to get it "all" back. I don't know. But I know it's realistic to try!
Pete, It is also great to see you again. Do you play the guitar and if so what kind of music?
I hope what I said makes sense, you were a bit more concise in your comments. This is my fragmented mind at the end of the day. lol