. Oh and yes, that psychiatrist did tell me I was too screwed up to ever get off medication. He said it in french but it boiled down to that! I think he is the one who needs meds! Bugger him, numbskull! and yes, that is like that psychologist and what he told you. Btw, that was not a great thing for him to say, to say the least!dear diva, and goofy, too - yes, let's keep this going. don't apologize diva for any of it.....but ya know it seems to me you are sabatoging yourself. you're sick of all the diagnosis/meds - one doctor says one thing, another says another thing......did that one really said you were too screwed up and would always have to take meds? wow - like the psychologist who told me i was so entrenched i would never not be depressed. i take the clonozapam, too (or klonopin) 3x a day. have been for about 2 months now, before i had only taken antidepressant (paxil). for me, the klonopin has had the best effect i have noticed by far. i'm not so worried about my liver or kidneys cause i quit drinking - i think that more than makes up for it or i hope anyway. i wish i had discovered this years ago, would have saved myself and alot of other people alot of grief because - now looking back - my anxiety was really out of control. your description of hypomania is how i describe my anxiety. i keep thinking i have bipolar spectrum something or other. my doctor actually gave me hope last week that i may not have to take meds for the rest of my life - he said if i was stable i.e. functioning, working, relatively happy for a year and a half we could taper down and see what happens from there. so i view the drugs as a daily crutch or brace right now that i really need to enable me to work on the behavior and relationship problems and this and that and so and so forth....you get the picture, i have alot of issues 
Well said Goofy. Diva, no need to apologize for anything, this forum is here for you so that you may get all the support needed 
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