Well, I managed to go to the gynecologist today. argh, he said you wanted to talk to me about the cyst in your ovary. I said NO, your nurse practitioner said I needed to talk to you and scheduled this appointment. He said it is nothing to worry about. Then he said, You are not menopausal. Remember the test we did in April showing your hormone levels were normal. I said well, why did my gynecologist of 28 years tell me I was menopausal 8 years ago, discuss my symptomology everytime we met, treatment options and put me on HRT. He said that is because hormone levels flucuate from day to day and we just get a day's reading when we do those tests (did he just contradict himself?) I said well, I think I do better on the HRT than without and I know the risk and I want to take it. I need to get a different gynecologist, the one of 28 years retired last year and referred me to this goofball! ARGH!
Then - since I fell for the third time on my shoulder, I decided to go see the general pracitioner about my shoulder. I will start PT Wednesday, gave me a topical anti-inflammatory and said to quit falling on it (lol, I love her sense of humor). I hope this fixes it and I get my ROM and strength back.
I then went to my parents house where my brother had taken everything down from high storage places and we started making piles of neither of us want this, one of us want this, throw this away. I could tell it was taking it's toll on him, we quit after a couple of hours. We decided we were in too big a hurry, couldn't manage to "take anything home till after Christmas" and to chill out! I liked that.
However, he was getting the last thing down from the attic when I got there, I said what's that, he said I don't know, a cutting board or something. I knew it looked familiar to me. I just couldnt' recall. Later he said, if you don't want this, I do. I said what is it? He said it's dad's drafting board! geez, was he intentionally lying or what. I think he lied to me about the gun cleaning kits too. But what am I to do? I then think it's only stuff, what does it matter. But no one wants to feel slighted.
The fun part: picking up something and me or him saying, remember when we did this or remember when dad or mom did this or that. Something would jiggle our memory and we'd have a good laugh!
Anyway, we are gonna meet again on Thursday instead of everyday this week. And try to rearrange furniture to get boxes separated! There are 104 built-in cabinets throughout the house, they are all empty, including the attic. So stuff is everywhere!
Thanks for the support, I wish I could say that I'll be okay with all this, but I am sure you will hear from me again.
by the way, I don't want to go back to work!
You are definitely on the road to success 
hang on tight to that edge, don't let anyone push you over 
