Answering the questions - take 2
What specifically am I afraid of?
old answer: I don't know and it makes me angry that I am feeling this way since I've worked this session before.
new answer: I'm not really sure, but if I were to guess it might be that I'm afraid I'll fail at setting any new goals and get really mad and hate on myself again.
What is giving this fear power?
old answer: Probably old restraints that were needed for safety, but no longer have a place in the here and now.
new Answer: previous life experience
What is scary about goal setting?
old answer: Thinking for myself. Wanting... anything. Pressure to be something maybe I'm not or could never be.
new answer: I'm not really sure, but if I were to guess it might be that if I set a goal it means I'm tapping into something I want ... something I WANT ... which gets me believing in possibilities and then it won't happen because that's just the way life is and I won't be able to push the want back into it's permanent hiding place.
What's the worst that can happen?
old answer: The hope that I feel from previous small successes will be pulled out from under my feet... just be an illusion... it will all turn out to be pointless... an absurd expenditure of time and effort.
new answer: I'll feel terrible and discontented and more depressed than ever.
What's the best that could happen?
old answer: I don't know but thinking about it makes me want to cry and then my thoughts just stop. I don't understand this reaction.
new answer:
It's a road block with no forward movement. Also, many people say, "I don't know" when they want to avoid something.
