I know exactly what you are saying, I feel that way as well...everyone comes before me and I don't matter enough to change for myself! That is why I am here now...I realise that I need support to get better! I'm not saying that all my hopes are put on this site, but with time and help from as many people as we can get, I believe that I can feel better about myself! I truly hope you get the responses you are looking for! Take care! Jenn