I have anxiety/panic, OCD and depression.
When anxiety ruled my life I wished I had depression instead, thought it would be better. Now that depression is becoming more apparent in my life, I find myself wishing for the anxiety to come back.
At least when I had anxiety I worried more so about myself, others too, but primarily myself.
Now I am so depressed, I dont know what to do, and its ruining my life.
I no longer go to school, I have no desire. I have no desire to hang out with friends, I want to spend all my time with my bf, but Im pushing him away too.
I cant seem to trust him, I get jealous and think of irrational thoughts about him, that hes not where he says he is, and so on and so forth.
I love him to death, I would do anything for him, but I can't get these bad feelings out of my head.
i feel sick constantly, I sit and wait by the phone for him to call and it drives me even more crazy.
Im just, I dunno what to do.
I want to end it, but I know the pain will be far worse, I couldn't lose him. I love him too much, hes my life.
Help...please...
