i am also new here. i was hospitalized for major depression about 4 years ago, and its been an uphill battle ever since. right now im doing bad again, bursting into tears at any real or imagined slight. i have no energy and am snapping at everyone, including my 2 kids. i cant help but feel like a worhtless sack of ****, and that its all my fault. i took a klonopin last night to slow my mind down and i think ill need another today.

mod, You've come to the right place! Please feel free to roam the site at your own pace. If you look to the left of the screen under "PROGRAM TOOLS" you'll find our Depression Test. The purpose of these tests is to prepare you with information that you can present to your physician. When you're finished the test, you can either print your Final Report or email it directly to your doctor. If you ever have any questions or concerns please click the "CONTACT US" link at the bottom of the page. We're open to any questions or concerns you may have. Looking forward to hearing from you soon! Melanie _________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team

Hello. Although I am new to this site, this is not my first battle with depression. I first realised something was wrong in my third year of university six years ago. At the time I was severly depressed and suicidal. I realised that I had felt this way for most of my life in one form or another. After university things went back to what I believed was normal, but looking back I cannot honestly say I was happy. About a month ago everything started to crumble around me again and I lost whatever control I thought I had. I have been fighting thoughts and feelings of severe depression ever since then. I have come to realise that MDD is apart of my life and instead of trying to ignore it or make it go away, I must instead find coping mechanisms to help me get through these difficult times. I am interested and have studied natural forms of treatment and am currently visiting a doctor who spealizes in alternative forms of medicine. I will be using chinese herbs, homeopathy, vitamin supplements, psychotherapy workbooks in combination with healthy nutrition and exercise. I am in no way against the use of anti-depressants and in fact believe them to be appropriate in many cirucmstances. But at this point in my life, they are not the right choice for me. I signed up with the Depression Center to work through the 16 week session diary as well as meet people who are on the same path as I am. I also downloaded the CBT client so if anyone wants a new buddy please add me to their list :) I look forward to chatting with all of you.