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18 years ago 0 11 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Sweetsurrender, Ther are a lot of people on this board that are like Oedipus - the wounded hero in Greek mythology who could help everyone but himself. What Kelly said is very true, about breakups. It can be very traumatic. I hate to sound like a cliche, but life DOES go on, painful as it is. Let me put it in perspctive for you: my parents used to beat the crap out of me every day. Paint stirrers, electrical cords, wire hangars, leather belts. Did your love do that? No? what the hell was so great about him if he dumped YOU? Listen, you're a helluva better than that. Listen to me: You are better than that and that jagoff doen't deserve you.
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Sweetsurrender, I am so sorry things are not going well for you. I understand the fear of "going back down there" again. I had very similar feelings for at least 3 years after my hardest episode. I still think about it whenever fall comes around, but it does get a little easier each year. Please give yourself permission to feel your grief. Break ups can often be as devistating as a death. Allow that to work itself out. I'm sorry you can't depend on your family or friends, but remember you can always count on us. We will listen and support you. Kelly
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Hi sweetsurrender, This sounds like you are going through a very rough time right now. Please don't feel that you have to be alone in this. Fellow members will be responding soon, but please consider consulting with your counselor. I know you said you don't see them often, but maybe they could offer some assistance. Take care and keep us posted as to how you are doing. Casey ___________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team
18 years ago 0 12 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Y'all I am scared - tomorrow will be a year since the beginning of the end for me. I can feel all those raw emotions swirling around and I am trying so hard to keep them from coming back to the surface again. It all hurt so much and I don't want to feel that again...ever. But I know as these next few days and weeks and months come that there is no way I can escape them. I am not sleeping well again and feel this constant state of anxiety just on the verge of happening. I have realized he has moved on- that most likely he never really loved me the way I loved him and that I can't change him only me. But it hurts, and I can't find a way to not want or need or hope for what once was to be again. I am scared to let go because when I do it is then for sure .... over. How stupid of me to feel that way- to want to hold onto something even if all I have left is pain, right? I am trying to fill my days with as much as I can so I don't have even one second to just sit and think because when I do it all comes back - the whole mess from the love to the questions to the hurt and pain. I feel so lost still and unsure of what my future will or should be. Am I ok? Will I fall again into the darkness? I can't talk to my family - they don't understand- my best friend is - well involved in her own strange set of circumstances- my dr just shoves pills at me and as dearly as I love and trust my counselor I only get to talk to her every 3-4 weeks for one hour. Will this be the way my life is for the rest of my days? Always wondering what is to happen- when I will fall back into the blackness and emptyness? I feel on the verge of tears but am afraid to let them see them cause then come the questions and the oh you just need to get over it - move on - your acting silly.... I am lost and alone again even amoungst all the people surrounding me. I so need someone to hold me and let me cry in their arms and to tell me everything will be alright. :(

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