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Hi StarryDreamer just wanted to let you know you have lots of support here, you are not alone, i hope things improve for you real soon.Gabbi.
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Hello StarryDreamer, You bet you can rant here all you want. And get support to boot! Like Kelly said we've all been there before and some are going through it all yet again. You didn't mention a Dr. or any medications...have you been to see a Dr? Believe it or not sometimes they can help and if they can't they can certainly send you to someone that can. And I agree with everyone else a journal can be a godsend. To get it out on paper (or computer screen) and off of your chest is such a relief. Stop and think about how you felt after you typed your post.... Felt good to get it out didn't it? If you can't let things out at home you always have this site to share your feelings and worries. Take care
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StarryDreamer, You feel free to vent and rant here all you want. We have all done it at one time or another. I'm sorry your husband isn't as supportive as you need him to be. It is very difficult for those not afflicted with the disease to understand what we are going through. It is a terrible sick joke of this illness that convinces us that we are totally alone, and that we aren't worth listening to. I agree with wishingwell that having a computer journal might be a good compromise for your journaling issue. My other thought was, instead of you hiding in the back of your wardrobe, maybe you could put your journal there. :) Anyway, it may not help right now, but please know that all of us here have been where you are, and understand the set back thing. Keep us updated on how you are doing, we're here to help! Kelly
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Hi StarryDreamer, Come here and share your feelings anytime. Documenting your feelings can be very therapeutic. Be sure to take advantage of the tools of our online program to document your feelings such as the Depression Diary and the Mood Tracker. Casey ____________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team
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Hi Starrydreamer, I feel the things your saying cause I've been there myself on the isolating and not opening up to my family or one friend that I have managed to keep all these years. However, it is hard to open up to others when you do not do so on a regular basis. It's the nature of this illness, it creates a base of shame that stops you from asking others for help. I can share what I do that has helped me is to type journal entries in my computer in a software program that requires a password to get access to that way no one can see what I write, but me. I can even print it out later if I choose and share it with my therapist, which I have done and decide what to do with the paper later. It really does help to put your thoughts and feeling out there on black and white to make them real and see them for yourself. I am still learning to ask for help even though it is scarry. On this site you will find alot of other people like yourself who are willing to help you help yourself and be there for you during these hard times. Don't give up, it will be difficult most times, but as long as you can realize that it is not permanent and that it will get better, you can make it through this. Take care and welcome to the program.
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Hi everyone, i just need to get my frustrations out and have a little rant because i have no one else to talk to in the whole world about this. I feel like i am breaking down and i am trying so hard not to fall apart for my husbands sake and mine. Hes said he cant go through it again so anything i decide to do im on my own. I cant talk to my friends because i dont keep in touch with them too much and i dont want to call one of them out of the blue just for a shoulder to cry on. I have no one to talk to which kills me every single day sometimes i think that if i had just one person then i would feel better. Sometimes i dont think my husband understand me at all and things i find funnny (which isnt much these days) he doesnt, he cuts my scemntances off (without meaning too ) so then i think why should i bother to say anything at all? Dont get me wrong he is a wonderfull man but i think that its my depression making me feel like this. I had a book i used to scribble in and i cant do that because i have no where to hide it and if i left it around its more trouble than its worth.He doesnt understand that its how im feeling at that time and that its not how i truly feel. I just want to go and hide in the back of my wardrobe in the dark and hopefully i might find a magical land like narnia where everything is perfect and beautifull and where money means nothing and no one ever has to feel bad. May be i am too much of a day dreamer for my own good but i want nice things and a nice house and at the moment people are throwing so much at me i dunno how i can cope now let alone in ten years time. Am i Crazy because either im crazy or its people around me thats crazy and im the only sane one around me right now.

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