Hi Rayne,
I don't remember if I shared or not, but I started having those yawning spells as well, but not till I started taking Buspar about one week ago or so. I feel like I can't catch my breath, not enough oxygen going to my brain. I asked my doctor about this and he confirmed that when this happens it is due to insufficient oxygen and that is my body's way of taking in more. I even think I feel more anxious with the medication, but I need to wait to see if it goes away, if not I'll probably stop taking it. I really enjoyed talking with you and all your input and support. If you go on CBT later tonight or whatever time zone you are in, I'll try to sign in as well. Right now it is around 10 am on Saturday. Last night was pretty rough time for me, how about you? I stayed up real late for me that is till around 1:30 am. I called the crisis hotline, but after someone got on the phone and I inquired whether it was anonymous or not, I didn't feel comfortable speaking with the person, so I did not discuss how I felt at the time. I don't know what happened yesterday that triggered me to feel suicidal, but I was so afraid and scared that I just went to sleep. I saw my therapist yesterday and felt worse after I left. Too many things to think about and make decisions about that it triggered those irrational thoughts. I am sorry that I can't be more uplifting for you and others right now, but I am in a bad space in my head. I am still waiting for the medication to take away those morbid thoughts, and feel out of control when they don't stop. If I could have felt safe enough to reach out without fear, I would have probably talked to the crisis counselor and expect to be hospitalized last night. But I made it through another tough night somehow and I am going to try to be positive today and share how I feel with at least you. See you later I hope, Take care and God bless you
