Sharon,
I have been where you are as far as wanting to hurt myself. At one point my husband stopped me from driving because I often thought of going left of center. It is a scary place to be. All I can say is please don't do anything to hurt yourself. There are those who care about you, and would suffer greatly without you. I know that we don't really know each other well, but I know that your encouraging words have meant a lot to me already and I would really like to get to know you better. It has been nice conversing with you.
Even more important than me is that God loves you. I don't know where you stand as far as your spiritual life is concerned, but I do know that He does love you. He also knows how we hurt, and even when we don't feel Him around us He is there. I hope this doesn't offend you, but knowing these things are the only reason I have been able to last as long as I have. If it weren't for God and my husband I wouldn't be here today.
I hope you continue to work at getting through one day at a time, and know that is all we can do, or all that we are expected to do. If we continue to support each other, we can do this! :o)
I'll be praying for you.
Kelly