Since Fall has arrived, I have been feeling so sleepy and useless and helpless and hopeless all the time, that I'm often thinking that I would be better dead than living, and what would be the better way to die... Is this thinking dangerous that I become suicidal? I try to challenge this negative thought again and again, but it's an obsession. I dont want to die. I've been seeing my therapist every two weeks and my psychiatrist every month since 4 yrs with ups and down I suffer from depression and obsessive compulsive disease. Is it normal for a depression to last so long? I'm afraid of telling my treatment team about those thoughts because I'm afaid that they will get discouraged and will prescribe me electro-shock treatment.I,m terrified of that.
Sarah
