what now,
in my opinion, anger is just an excuse. what is really there is hurt than you just cant deal with. its easier to be angry than admit something hurts. hurt makes you weak. anger empowers you...in a twisted sense. if you are hurt its like you feel like you have lost control and with anger you think you are in control but you really arent. we forget anger is a total loss of control but when you are in "it" it is hard to see. that is my opinion. he is just really hurting. when i am really hurting i push everyone away. i just cant deal with people. even on this site, i wont post or respond when i am hurting. i work very hard to not let anger get the best of me. oh i used to tho. i used to live angry. i hated everyone and everything and i blamed everyone and everything. now i mostly turn that inwards but i am working on that. i hope some of this helps. still, it is no excuse. he cant take things out on you and your son. its not right. i think that is why i internalize things so i dont take them out on the people in my life. its not fair. ya know?
