I went to the doctor yesterday and they are adjusting my medication again, the second time this year. It seems so pointless. I still feel like I am never going to climb out of this hole. I've been doing it for so long, years and years, and I can't see any light up ahead. Maybe I'm never going to get better. Maybe I just need to accept it and decide what to do about it. I am just so tired. I don't know if I have it in me to "hang in there" any more.
