Hi Sandy,
It's good that you're here. I'm sorry you're in such a dark place. I know, only too well, how you're feeling. The sadness, the overwhelming feeling of anxiety, and (it sounds like) not being able to keep your mind on one thing long enough to be able to think it through. I'm no doctor; but it sounds to me like you haven't found the right medication yet.
Your post didn't specify which kind of doctor you're seeing.If it's a GP, their knowledge of depression meds is limited. (in MY opinion) Also there are so many new meds on the market that they can't keep up with them all. I would recommend going to a specialist who's familiar with different meds and their potential side effects.
What you described is exactly what I went through with a med. that wasn't right for me. It was because of a post in this forum that I twigged to what was going on with me. I thought I was loosing my mind. :quest: I know that you WILL feel better once you find the right combo of depression & anxiety meds.You've already done a lot of the work because you've tried so many already. Maybe the next combo will be the right one! I hope so. Wishing you well SOON, Sandy. Kate14