Theresa: I once heard it said that "Suicide becomes a 'life sentence' for the loved ones still living. This is so very true, so if nothing else keeps you from committing suicide this thought should. Your son needs you and others who love you do also, don't inflict that upon them. There's always hope that things will change around, I've seen it happen many times before. You never know what lies around the next corner and that might just be a very happy, healthy and productive life. New meds are being developed every day, new therapies, new ways of getting and staying healthy. DON'T GIVE UP! PLEASE FOR THE SAKE OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU AND NEED YOU. J.