Arcano,
Thank you so so so much for your words of encouragement. I went to therapy today and it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. I mean, it was trying, but once i made myself break down initial barriers, i told the therapist everything even about the cutting, which was my goal going in there. It was weird though, there were a couple of times he seemed almost puzzled by my answers, i don't know why. Maybe it's all in my head (almost everything else is). Anyway, thank you, wonderful people truly do exist and this site is chock full of them and that is a very comforting thought.
-jones
