Bad day. Not with anxiety but, fighting off depression. I did a lot of research online about if it's better to live near family and friends when a loved one has died. And, it was 100% yes because, they are your social network. You're surrounded by people who care about you and it's, literally, good for you. You are healthier, live longer, have fewer illnesses and fewer hospitalizations and you're making memories. So, I decided I wanted to move centrally located to loved ones which is PA. I talked with my Dad about it this morning and he shot it down. So, instead of feeling trapped in MD in an abusive relationship with my ex, I'm now trapped in FL isolated and alone. Same situation. Dad is stubborn, negative and depressed. He refuses counseling, support groups and doesn't want to make new friends. He just wants to sit in a chair with his cat on his lap and wait to die to be with Mom. He's lost weight and the will to live. I had to watch my Mom deteriorate over the course of a year and die. And, now it's happening again with my Dad. It's a fact that many people pass a year or two after a spouse dies from a broken heart. I'm left alone to take care of everything. I'm mad at myself because, I am 54 and I never lived my life. I lived it for everyone else. I know there are no problems, only solutions I haven't thought of yet. I thought about being a snowbird and living part time near family and friends up north and part time with Dad in the south.