I am 19 years old and currently a full time student working a full time job. I developed the disorder during school after my friend was shot and killed and since then I have gotten considerably worse. I spent days confined to my bed because I thought leaving it pretty much guaranteed a panic attack. Which I was not wrong about. Finals week was hell and resulted in my grades dropping- I sought out a psychologist who wanted to work through therapy and offered medication. I am someone who doesn't take medicine even when I have the flu, so i denied. Coming home i got even worse, I hated leaving the house and couldn't sleep- i even lost over 10 pounds in less than a month. My Dr. prescribed me Xanax and Lexapro, upon taking them for the first time I was so sick. I woke up to throwing up in my bed and within the first hour of the Lexapro I felt my anxiety peaking. Since then I have been terrified to take it again and actually begin to panic at the thought of taking it but i know I can't keep living like this. Has this happened to anyone else before?