Just something to think about for now. Looking forward in
continuing this program. Will be on Step
4.0 Monday and am certain it will be the most challenging part?
Thank you both very much for the replies/ help. After
thinking what you both said over, you are both absolutely correct!!! It is not
so much about the “situation” it is more so about “control” or “wanting to do
something” vs “made or having to do something”! For example the dentist scenario;
I was told a year or so ago that my teeth need all to be pulled and get
dentures. As I was in excruciating pain nearly every day with two of the teeth
for years, I was happy to hear that and told them “YES LETS GET THOSE TWO OUT” no problem and no pain and was so happy I agreed to get them out afterwards. Now that those two painful teeth are gone, this
recent visit (6 months latter) that I should have gone and had 4 more pulled was canceled by me
due to a full blown panic attack. The teeth they want to pull next don’t even
hurt. I know they need to go and have to work around what my health insurance
allows per year for extractions. In other words as you both said, I lost “control”
of that situation and is what spurred this last full blown panic attack and canceled
the appointment!!! It was so freaking bad lasting almost an hour, I could
barely walk (spaghetti legs), tried to talk to a few business clients on the
phone and couldn’t, etc.. After it was all over, I was mentally and physically “wiped
out” for the remainder of the day almost lethargic & even into the next day!
QUESTION; is that normal to be “wiped out” after a full blown attack?
I will continue to work through this program. I know dr prescribed
drugs can be of great help but want to try it first drug free. I do appreciate your
suggestions and any help you can offer!
Sincerely… David