Hey thanks for welcoming me.
I must admit I have a hard time realizing if since November I have made some progress. Other people say that I did so I hope they're right & keep my head up.
CBT has been a great learning experience about ourselves & made me think less dramatically about some symptoms. However when I'm in the middle of a panic symptom, it is quite difficult to rationalize. For me this is the biggest challenge.
These are the situations in which I was really panicky but where I'm not anymore:
- Subways: It's underground so I was not really sure if I would be able to breathe & escape,
- Cars: I don't really know why but somehow it triggered a panic,
- Shopping centers, supermarket: Felt really oppressed by the environment (noise, crowd..),
- Clubs, bars & concert halls: Crowd problem..
Today my challenges are these:
- Taking the plane: I freak out about mechanical problems at 35,000ft. I'm doing max exposure work (flew 4 times this month),
- Being alone: Scared that I could have a heart attack & not being able to reach out for help (still don't know how to not panic about this anymore)..
- Being tired: Tiredness is a trigger,
- Skipping breakfast, lunch or diner: I think that my lack of energy provided by food could be fatal to me, even if it's just once,
- Working for more than 2 hours straight: I feel lightheaded & fainty. Ths one is my biggest challenge.
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