I'm feel off this morning and I know why I believe. It just sucks.
I like mental bubbles, it helps. The older I get, I feel the worst people get. I used to be a fan of Black Friday shopping and I really want to hold onto that tradition because of my dad, but I just can't do it this year. After last year and all the stupid stores opening so early, it doesn't feel the same :(
Even in regular stores, it can be crazy to just get out of the parking lot.
People are just in such a hurry, they rarely pay attention to people.
It's getting cold here too, but I am hoping it doesn't snow. I don't like driving in it anymore.
Lately some mornings it has been hard for me to get up again and I don't want to sink back into where I was a few weeks ago. My mom had an episode last night (that is what we call them). I discovered she was experimenting with her insulin :/ I threaten to take her to the hospital. Thursday is the anniversary of my dad's death, so we knew the episodes were coming. She gets really angry or sad, so we have to watch her so she doesn't do anything stupid. I don't think she will kill herself, as she sees it as a sin. Could she accidentally kill herself? Yes. We have to make sure she takes all her medicines. My sister is to call her primary care doctor today to see about refilling her nerve medicine or getting her on some kind of anti-depressant. I am worry about her, her sight is failing and she has mentioned she would never want to live if she can not see :/ She has not eating well either, she gets these thoughts in her head that believes are fact and follows them. She believes is she gets to certain weight, she will get better and be healed....that is never going to happen. She has too many health problems and she never takes care of herself. I control everything, even the money. I buy her proper foods and we don't let her snack all the time. My mom is like taking care of a 5 to 6 year old at times. Her angry causes tantrums, but they have not been violent in a long time.
Sorry I'm ranting.
I hope everyone is doing ok.