We have suggest to my mom getting involved in groups, but she wants nothing to do with them. She also gets sick if we are out too long for some reason.
My therapist believes I took on too much responsibility after my dad died, but I had no choice really. It all started before he died anyway, someone had to be the responsible one.
I do have my sister with me and we try to work things out so one is home most of the time with her, if I did not have my sister I have no idea what would have happen by now.
My mom has made it clear also if we ever put her in a home, she would find a way to kill herself and she will make sure we know it was all our fault that she is dead, as we killed her. I don't think she would kill herself, but I can see her doing something. She used to get herself in diabetic comas on purpose to get attention and go to the hospitals. My dad told her the last time it happen ( a year or so before he died) that the next time she had to go to a hospital for something like that, she was never coming home. He would find her a home for the elderly.
I think I miss my dad's strength the most. I sometimes also wonder where I would be if he had not died, would I still be in this state? Would I be in this career? That's the problem with What If's....they can make things worst.
