Hi my name is Liz and I am new to this site. I have been living with agoraphobia for over 6 years now. I had anxiety here and there but when my mother passed away everything went black. I couldn't leave a 4 block radius. Everything frightened me. I found a therapist who actually did not help and made things worse. I started getting anxiety when I was going to my visits. I started doing exposure therapy on my own and then with the help of a friend and I was doing awesome. I was almost at my goal point and felt a new lease on life. I then met a man that I fell in love with and that turned into an emotional abuse terror. He sucked my confidence away and I felt the unhappier he made me it made his life amazing. I am slowly getting away from him and back to myself. I have never been in a relationship like that ever where someone with holds affection, emotional abuse, etc. He was completely manipulating and using. So now I am trying to get back on that horse and begin with exposure again. I went out today riding and made it to all the check points I established for myself. When I try to go past them its like there is this big wall or hurdle I can't get over. I used to have a lot of strength and confidence in myself to get over anything. I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions of how to get over this hurdle and maybe ease some of the fear. I think somewhere in me is still afraid if I go past a certain point I am going to have a panic attack and they scare me. Let me know and thank you for taking the time to read my story. I am very grateful to find this site and know I am not alone.