Living Alone

Well, when you two figure it out, you both need to let me know, okay? I was an idiot this weekend. Went on my first date since the accident, and it was bad idea. Too soon. Wound up with me crying and him trying to calm me down and me apologizing that I'd made a mistake and tried to do something I wasn't ready for yet. Mortifying...and imagaine how bad HE felt. And...even worse, I smoked. So...you guys tell me the solution when you figure it out. And I will get my head srewed on straight and start again... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/30/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

and He Coughs

Lady -- I'm so very sorry. My ex husband's mom died with emphysema, and no amount of talking, pleading, begging, chiding would make her stop smoking. Even wearing oxygen late in life, she continued to smoke. It was painful for her and for all of us who cared about her. I'm just an email away if you need to talk.

I do but I dont

Cuddles -- here's a distraction to try. I do this when I can't sleep (often!). Close your eyes and sit in a relaxed position or lie down. Recite numbers in your head in this fashion: 100...1. 99....2. 98.....3. 97.....4. Got the pattern? Think of nothing else. If you lose track, start over at the beginning. Usually by the 4th attempt I've gotten no farther than 94....7, and by then I'm in some zen number-zone that lets me get to sleep, or at least calm the storm in my mind.

Her Battle is Over!!!

Vicki, I'm so sorry about your friend. Please know that I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

Update

Hey Infinite_D -- is your manager still off tobacco??? Curious how he's doing.

Really bad cravings

You're doing awesome kitty -- 13 days is GREAT. I'm copying an old post by duffis that is helpful during a rough crave: Picture yourself a second or two after you stub out that quit-breaking cigarette. The one that you just had to have because the craving was so strong you couldn't hold out any longer, when that voice inside you was saying.. "Go on, life sucks, you may as well smoke a cig.. y'know for your nerves.." or the other one.. "you've got this beat now.. you are in control.. you can have one just now and again.. go on have one for old time's sake.." So you bum a cigarette, and smoke it and in 2 and 1/2 minutes, you stub it out. Now what. Your mouth feels like crap. Your lungs are tightening up. You managed to stifle the coughs .. but barely. You began to squint again because the smoke hurt your eyes. and your fingers and clothes smell again. You either want to throw up, grab some mouthwash, take a shower, or have another.. maybe buy a pack. But then you realize what you've just done. After all those times when you said you were going to quit, and then when you finally did, and your family and friends were so happy for you - but not exactly over the moon, because after all they've been hopeful before only to see you relapse - all that enthusiasm is now smashed to pieces on the floor. And all the pressure that drove you to grab that cigarette in the first place - it's all still there. Nothing has changed, except now you've added one more problem: you just blew it. And then you realize what you've really done. You had invested days, maybe weeks and months, in this quit. You had made a great decision, one of the few things you really and truly felt proud of in your life, and you just blew it. You just blew the quit that you swore to yourself was the last one. You were so positive, so motivated, and encouraged, you were really on top of it, ahead of the game for once, you had taken control of your life and it felt like a whole new beginning.. and you just blew it. You look at that stub in the ashtray. The grey ash and the brown edge to the burnt paper, and the tar stain on the end of filter. You remember the thousands of cigarettes you have stubbed out and think about the tar that came into your lungs as smoke. And you think if smoking t

overwhelming junkie b.s. -- help, help, help

Small hurdle cleared. Posted that little rant at work. Managed to get in the car and get all the way home without stopping to buy cigarettes. Do not have any here, nor the associated ashtrays, lighters, etc. If I can stay away from the car for the rest of the day I'll be okay. Thanks for letting me pout, and thanks for some great suggestions, a very interesting visual, and overall wonderful support. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/22/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 39 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31

overwhelming junkie b.s. -- help, help, help

UGH!!!! :mad: Every stupid, already-used, retarded junkie excuse in the universe is flooding through my mind at the same time. Here are the stupider ones but the ones that keep repeating themselves: 1. You'll do better if you just punt this one and try at the first of the month. "Cleaner" break-off date somehow. 2. I deserve to smoke because life has sucked so much lately. 3. I'll be stronger later. 4. I actually was a social smoker (about a pack a year) many years ago. I'll just go back to that and it won't be so bad. AAAAACCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!! My usual M.O. when I get here is to jump right off the wagon, and give up. Maybe venting and posting and being a general pain in the a** instead will be more effective. Sigh -- sorry to whine. Needed to vent. Nasty cravings all day. Delay, distract, post, read, overeat, pout, whine, grrrrrrrr. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/22/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 39 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5

overwhelming junkie b.s. -- help, help, help

Thanks everybody. Still fighting the urge, but now too late and too tired and going to sleep sounds like safe and good escape. Hope everyone has a good Wednesday. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/22/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 41 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 39 [B]Seconds:[/B] 47

Does anyone else have this symptom???

Dentyne Ice gum works well also...peppermint (or whichever one is in the green package)