I am very excited! My wife and talked and since we really don't need me to work and she loves having me just be around to take care of her, I have decided to take a class. I don't know if I have ever said anything about it,but 30 years ago I got my masters in fine art. However during my graduate program, I went thru a divorce. I hung in to complete the program, but when it was done, I dropped everything that had to do with art, got a job in business and went about the job of supporting a family. Always kind of felt guilty about not using my degree. Well starting thursday I am taking a class in printmaking( which was my emphasis in grad school) and am very excited about it. Started doing some research and was just amazed about how it all came flowing back. I guess they are right, once you plant it in your head, you do never lose it. Will probably be careful about a few things though. Will probably not say much to others in the class about my degree. I am proud of my accomplishment, but do not want others to think that I am a show off. Pride goes before the FALL! Also need to be sure I don't put to much pressure on myself. I am doing this because at one time I loved to do this. Whatever happens as a result of my involvement, is secondary. It is most important to enjoy this opportunity I have been given.
I love to cook, which seems to do both. It gives me a sense of accomplishment, because I am doing my part to help manage the house and all that goes with it( shopping, planning meals, saving money by shopping ads). Also there is a sense of accomplishment by trying new recipes and having them turn out correctly. It is also very pleasurable though, all the smells, The flavors, and also enjoying the pleasure of others when they like what you have made.
Thanks everyone! Well the first class went great! It is all coming back like riding a bike. I think one of the best things is that it really occupies my mind and gives me some real direction. Makes me wonder alittle what might have been if I hadn't gone thru the divorce I went thru while going thru Grad school, but then I wouldn't have met my wife and you all. God has a plan in there somewhere. It is a very small school, it is neat,because the chair of the art dept. and a bunch of other professors are in my class. Nice way to make some contacts. I am not putting any pressure on it though, just going to concentrate on enjoying the process again of making art, but I did teach college classes while I was a grad student, so you never know.
If you would like to know more about printmaking, the easiest way is to go to wikipedia. It has the basic information. Right now I am starting out simple, but am working in linocuts, etching and aquatint. Got to go! It feels great to say, I have alot to do. Will keep you informed and will see if I can post some of my stuff so all can see. Finding it harder to get on here as much as before, but will be praying for you all
I know what you mean. It is hard to even know what you are looking for when you are feeling like that much less be able to ask for it. Glad to hear you are getting out even if it is hard. Each step may not be big ,but it is taking you forward. Just takes time and I know time seems to go so very, very slow. Hang in there and know you have friends here and also it does get better. You are in my prayers!
Hang in there Diva! Got to remember the chemicals in your brain had alot to do with the way you are feeling to begin with, so as soon as you as start changing things, well things start to happen. Some of them good, some of them not so good. Don't feel guilty about going to have it checked out. Even if they say it is not the meds, that is a good thing ,not bad. And it is not in your head, so don't fret so much about that( I know that is easier said than done). You are in our prayers and thoughts! Remember your own words" This too Shall Pass!"
You are right about some people just want to bring you down. Easier for them to do that then to do the hard work to try to feel better. You should be very proud of yourself in not going down to there level. Not easy work, but you are right sometimes it does(form my own experience) lead us down with them. Especially when we are working so very hard to get better and to do the right thing. HANG TOUGH KIDDO! You have moved forward much more than you realize!
As far as appearances, they all have to do with the culture of the day( have you ever seen the paintings of Ruebens?). People want everyone to acty and dress the way the do so they can feel good about their own choices. So it ain't easy, just remember you are great, just the way you are!
I should start by saying that I have a bias against doctors. I think they have knowledge, but they are still basically taking an educated guess. Also I think that he has never experienced what we are going thru so he is biased as are most people that this is something we can work thru . I think it has more to do with the chemicals in our brains. My thoughts on this were reinforced just recently. Right now I seem to have everything going for me. Yet in spite of that, starting last friday, I felt myself starting to slip( you know what I mean) and asked my doc to raise the dosage of my meds and it helped level things off. Now I don't think it is all the meds, but I think that it is part of it. I also think it should be your decision when to get off and not your doctor's. But that is just MY opinion!
Mom of 3, I have been thru what you are going thru. I went thru a very similar situation with my first wife while I was in grad school. I know it seemed like I went thru a roller coaster of emotions everyday. I had cared for her very deeply, so the hurt was very deep. I had to realize that it took me awhile to get to the point where I cared for her like I did, so it was going to take me awhile to get over it. While I was going thru it , it seemed like it took an eternity. I just kept plodding along and tried not to respond back negatively to her, but at the same time hold my ground and do what was best for me. It is always easier said then done and much less painful looking back, than when you are in the middle of it. I prayed alot and I got thru it. There are scars, but I look at them now and they don't bring bad feelings. Actually it's the good times I can remember and this gives me a closure and a sense that even though parts of it were bad, it was still part of my life that made me who I am and I would not go back now and change it. It is true that TIME heals all wounds, it is just getting thru that time is difficult. You are in my prayers always.
Rosie, I am so sorry to hear you are going thru such a tough time. i know how devasting it is to lose a friend, especially now when you feel so alone. I have been there. don't know what I can say to ease the pain other than I will keep you in my prayers. I can tell you something that has helped me. I have been going to a peer support group for a number of weeks. It is not really therapy, but more just a chance to talk to others(like this place ) who are going thru similar circumstances. I find that it helps take away alot of the isolation we feel when we are going thru a bad time. It feels good to be with people who you know understand, because they have been thru it. Everyone is very caring and compassionate in the way they treat each other. It helps me get past the stigma, because for all appearances they seem as like people you would say HI to on the street. Plus some people are doing well, so it gives you hope that "this too shall pass"and that is what we need most is HOPE that we can get thru it. I found mine thru Mental Health of America(mentalhealthamerica.net). Again you are in my prayers and we are ALL here to help in any way that we can.
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